It’s dawning on me that I will not be able
To reclaim 27 years lost,
The development I could have experienced,
When pills and depression
Robbed me
Of a competence I once had,
Which could have flourished into greater form
No, I can’t reclaim those years
Nor the increased competence I would have gained in those 27 years
I must accept the limitations on
My ability
Sad, or philosophical
I cannot reclaim those years
I may never recover even what I once was
Let alone what I could have become
With 27 years of practice, application, learning
Tragic, the waste, those lost 27 years
Coming to terms with what I am, where I am
The competences I do have, not
Those I don’t have, I could have had
David Fekete 