It’s hard to find words for joy
And who wants to read happy poems?
Poetry begins in a pang
And sings the still, sad song of humanity
But I’m done with sad
This growing blithe spirit of mine
Hail to me my blithe spirit
“O friends, no more these sad tones
“Let us instead strike up more pleasing and more joyful ones!”
But what would those joyful tones be?
I don’t know, standing here bathed in light
Just at the tunnel exit, the darkness behind me
The interminable tunnel, the darkness when you’re in it
And I’ve been in it so long, so interminably long
Don’t we coalesce in misery together like an overcast sky
This amassing thunder-cloud with its strike of God-shock
That Götterfunken Schiller revealed; Beethoven immortalized
This confrontation with misery, this visit with trauma
This release, these successive explosions of what is not
Moksha, the liberation of which the Indic speak
There is no sunshine like just after the thunder-storm
Inspiring the shepherd’s hymn of thanksgiving
I can enjoy in golden moments, enjoy playing the keys, the music
I act effortlessly at times, have drive
Not compel a soporific lethargy to get it done
The tunnel behind me reaches back in misery
Back, behind the blithe light in which I now stand
At the tunnel exit
And today I am happy, happy at this moment I want
TUNNEL EXIT
13 Jul 2021 Leave a comment
in Blog Tags: depression, God, happy, joy, liberation, moksha, music, poem, poetry, sad
BITTERNESS: THE WORLD THAT GOD FORGOT
06 Feb 2021 Leave a comment
in Blog Tags: broken, creation, faith, God, poem, poetry, rhyme, sad, salvation, world
What kind of God, as He is called by some
Left the world and left the world into
Our very hands in His infinite wisdom.
God has more faith in us than I do.
Seems we humans botch things so badly
And we’re all so slow to learn and grow
I look around this broken world so sadly
And wonder how God just leaves it all so
We are the arbiters that that bring salvation
This world that God created and forgot
This world, this mess, this, our own creation
Isn’t God’s fault. We got us where we got
God trusted us with more than I would have
And left us to manage—made us manage
Hoped we would care about each other, love
Manage creation, each other, our age
God has more hope for us than I do
Yet here we are we are our own future
We serve ourselves and so deserve our due
God sees all, sees us and knows us, too
Knows we are the sickness and the cure
God has more faith in us than I do.
SHATTERED COMPLACENCY
08 Aug 2019 Leave a comment
in Blog Tags: doors, dreams, goals, jobs, plans, sad, statistics, talent
It can be surprising
How many doors can stay shut on a guy
How many things they won’t let you do
That you thought you could do
How many plans fall through
Goals don’t materialize
Dreams evaporate
How hard it can be to keep going
How sad a guy can get
Revenue streams abruptly stop flowing
While the clock ticks on the next bill due
But you are going to keep going
Keep trying to find that open door
A sign of the times, of a guy’s status, statistics
Cast-off ships that have likely sailed their last
But still are sea-worthy
Wisdom no one seems to inquire of
Talent not tapped
My cell-phone silent, but for Facebook notifications
