The philosopher for Aristotle is not in conflict

He does what he wants and consistently wants what is virtuous

I am more like Paul, who does not what he wants

And does what he does not want

I do not want the legacy of my childhood

Nor the tyrant my father was, nor the misery that was my home

Church was my refuge

A morning’s refuge once a week,

For me, the salve of love

Communion, human and Divine beloved community

A morning’s refuge once a week

Ferment in the crucible of what my life became

Diffusing as tendrils through my passions

Refining the dross that was my upbringing

Veins of gold shining through adamant,

Heavy adamant from my upbringing I carry

In the pilgrimage that is a life’s progress

Toward being whole, gold, unitary

In what I want and in the manifesting power

That spirit has to make, remake, make new

Make conflict cease, bring release, grant peace

In Praise of Aquaman

I just saw Aquaman and I loved it!  I like comic book movies, some more than others.  But I found Aquaman better than most of the other comic book movies.  It had a positive message; it wasn’t gratuitously dark; and it had layered plot tensions.  There were mother-son, father-son, brother-brother, master-pupil, international intrigue, and eco-justice themes all woven into a hero tale.

But was it Aquaman?  It is no coincidence that when Aquaman achieves the destined trident of power, all shout, “Hail King Arthur!”  The Aquaman movie was the Morte D’Arthur stories all woven around Aquaman.  There was Sir Gareth, or Beaumans–the naive, uncouth youth who gradually grows into one of King Arthur’s greatest knights.  There is the King Mark-Lady Isolde-Tristan love triangle.  There is Excalibur, which becomes the trident which only the true king can remove from its ancient pedestal.  There is the Mordred-Arthur conflict, only reversed as the bastard child becomes the true king.  With this difference: Aquaman has a good ending; it is not the tragedy that the Morte D’arthur is.

Aquaman affirms the best qualities of humanity: humility, parental love, selfless devotion to a great cause; peacemaking.  After so many movies plotted around revenge and personal resentments, it is refreshing to watch a movie plotted around noble virtues.  And Aquaman is a good story.  It is a long movie, but the 2 hour, 20 minutes of Aquaman held my attention.

DC Inc. came through in a big way with Aquaman.  I hope that the inspirational tone set by Aquaman is echoed in future films coming out of Hollywood.  Although critically acclaimed, No Country for Old Men was sad in every way.  I regretted the time I spent watching it.  By contrast, I was glad for every second of the 142 minutes of Aquaman, and the pleasant feelings I was left with afterward.

While the Eternal Clock Ticks

There’s that song by REM, an ’80’s band, that tells us to “Think about Direction.”  I think for a lot of us, our aims–our direction–are rather short-term.  When I was younger, I had an aim to get into a good school.  That was a goal of several years.  Then, when I got in, it was to get a good grade.  That was a goal of several months.  Then it was get a Ph.D., which was a goal of several years.  Some people, mostly business-oriented people, talk about having a five-year plan.  “Where do you want to be in 5-years?”  I think mostly this is about material things–being an executive, having a 3-bedroom house, making a 6-figure income, a family (which isn’t a material goal), etc.

But all the while I was pursuing my academic goals, I recall having an overarching goal, which I still have today.  Wisdom and virtue.  In my schoolwork, I took interdisciplinary programs to broaden my knowing.  I didn’t specialize in one discipline in order to fit into a job mold.  And as I was going about my life, I continued personal inventory to measure my life against what I understood to be good.  My conception of what the good is grew and developed as I learned more through my education and my life experiences.

On one end of the spectrum of goals are people who intentionally choose a lifestyle.  There aren’t many of these, I think.  Henry David Thoreau was maybe the classic example.  He intentionally set about a life in harmony with nature, moved out of the city, left capitalism behind, and communed with nature at Walden Pond.  On the other side of the spectrum are people whose main goal is to get through the day, get paid, pay their bills, hit the bar, and do the same thing tomorrow.

There are short-range aims and long-range goals.  Everyone needs to get up and go to work and get through the day.  But while we are doing this, there is room for farther-reaching goals.  Why are we going to work?  What are we intending to do with our money?  Who are we as we go about our quotidian lives?  Midway among these are like people who hit the gym before they hit the bar, having an intentional goal of being fit.  Some longer-ranged goals are creative accomplishments such as my interest in music–learning to play and writing songs.  This avocation is almost as important to me as is my career.  In school, one of my roommates was a body-builder.  Another roommate told me that bodybuilding was as important to him as was my music to me.  I had trouble thinking of bodybuilding as an equal kind of avocation as music.  But he was a dedicated bodybuilder.

Work, pastimes, longer-range goals, and the ultimate goal are all part of the virtuous life, I think.  I want to make beautiful and heartfelt music.  I like having an appreciative audience.  I have enough money and a small, comfortable condo.  But those two aims I had when I was younger are still with me.  Wisdom and virtue.

I know that I’m only a pilgrim on this material plane.  What really matters to me is the kind of soul I am cultivating.  In my thinking, that is what is of eternal value.  Money comes and goes.  Children grow up and live their own lives.  Our bodies deteriorate.  Fame passes, over time.  (Where is Jethro Tull, now?)  But what I’ve made of myself, with the One who has all power, lasts.  Rather, the process of spiritual growth lasts forever.  Because the One who has all power is infinite, and I am finite.  Because this is true, I have all eternity to approach nearer and nearer to the Perfect All Powerful One.  And all the wisdom, virtue, and joy that that means.  That’s the ultimate direction in my life.  And everything else either contributes to it, or keeps time while the eternal clock ticks.