BLACKTOP AND LILAC FLOWERS

I left reading The Book of Songs, compiled by Confucius,

On the wooden patio, its planters filled with small flowers

Bright purple, dainty white and purple, daisies, deep red

Like the Nature imagery structured through the Odes

Plum flowers, boughs with peaches, reeds picked by pools

On islands in the Yangtze River; measuring the hours of night

By the passing of stars through the sky, which places humans

In the still of Nature reverence, persisting yet from China’s antiquity

Driving away from the wooden patio, that June night when, at 9:30,

The sky was blue and in the west yellow-golden with the sun still up

The street’s blacktop clashed against the violet scent of lilac flowers;

Oaks decorated concrete sidewalks, rising steel and glass office buildings

Parking in a lot past downtown by the train tracks, I faced two billboards

Looked past the tilting chain-link fence to the clashing billboards—

The pinkish, tomato-soup orange Vizzy hard seltzer billboard against

The red CIBC Bank billboard, though some texts may call them

Complimentary colors, the pinkish, tomato-soup against red billboards

Eating my Quarter-Pounder, I couldn’t see the lady pick reeds by pools

Looking at the weeds, the tilting fences, the billboards by the parking lot

Facing the train tracks, nor at the municipal park, either, I drove to

And pulled over to let a screaming ambulance pass me, that had to cross

The centerline into oncoming traffic and a guy wouldn’t stop his car

To let the ambulance through, on my way; the municipal park circled

By a blacktop road, with pavilions and restrooms for picnickers

The stillness from Confucius’ Odes took me to the wooden patio,

The tiny flowers in the planters secluded by means of wooden planks

Composing the privacy fence—despite pink noise from the exhaust fan

Of the nearby brick restaurant—I picked reeds by pools with the lady

On an island surrounded by the rough Yangtze River, it was dark, now

IN COVID-19

Subjects wrap themselves in poetry

Today, practically every consideration pales

In comparison with

Tens of thousands infected, thousands dead

Hospitals past capacity, protective gear spent, exhausted

Medical professionals sick, exposed

Failed containment

Considerations pale in comparison with COVID-19

You used to be IT if you had

A Cabbage Patch Doll

And liked Ben and Jerry’s ice cream

Or were hip in the bar

There was even a word for it—

“Trendy,” and yet people were

I wasn’t anybody until I went to Harvard

Yet, things in this world matter

Mean something even in COVID-19

It’s hard to play Mozart piano sonatas, now

But they matter, and my new book of Confucius’ Odes

(Ordered online, in social isolation)

The wind blows a lot of chaff away

In these days

As it carries the virus

Through the entire world

And wraps words around itself

Confucius and Laundry

While my clothes were in the dryer at the laundromat I continued reading the Analects of Confucius.  I have been reading Confucius over the past few weeks.  Much of his sayings I can’t understand.  But I do understand a portion of them.  However, pondering each saying–or should I say wrestling with each saying–puts my mind in a sacred space.  Confucius is emphatically about virtue.  His sayings make a person think about virtue.  Reading Confucius and wrestling with the meaning of his sayings disposes a person’s heart toward virtue.  I didn’t expect my psyche, my mood, to enter a sacred space when I read Confucius.  I was surprised when I put the book down.  I looked at the dryers, and I felt good about doing my laundry.  “This is a pleasant way to spend my time.  It is a useful and good activity for me to do,” I thought.  This feeling was remarkable.  Previously, laundry had been a drudgery.  So, I was surprised to find myself feeling good about doing my laundry today.  Reading Confucius elevated my spirit.

Generally, I find that sacred scriptures of world religions have that effect on me.  My Swedenborgian background taught me to pay attention to my psyche when I read the Bible.  Swedenborg writes that reading the Bible, “Enlightens the mind and warms the heart.”  He’s right.  The Bible also makes me feel spiritual and spiritual peace.  Other sacred scriptures have an analogous effect on me.  When I read the Koran, which I have to ponder deeply at times, I am uplifted.  Also,  the Tao Te Ching transports me, difficult as it is.  Even the Rig Veda, with the catalog of Gods and Goddesses it lists, and its vocative verses seems to lift me.

Sacred scriptures are records of humanity’s interactions with the Divine.  My interactions with sacred scriptures give me a personal experience of spirituality.  I feel different when I read sacred scriptures.  This is a kind of evidence for me.  I am not a Muslim, a Taoist, a Hindu, or a Confucian.  So why would I respond to their sacred texts?  But I do.  These texts point toward the Divine.  And I think that there is something there.  Why else would they affect me as they do?

I don’t live in the spiritual world now.  Or at least I’m not conscious of it.  So I also read literature from this world.  We are given birth without an instruction manual.  We make our way through this world as best we can figure out.  I think that great literati are sages with suggestions about how to negotiate our way through this world.  We certainly get enough of this world.  Everywhere we turn, we get this world–making a buck, hustling, doing our job, raising a family, watching reality TV.  But part of life in this world is interaction with the Divine.  And though I love to read Hemingway and Thoreau, they don’t do for me what the Analects of Confucius does for me.  I will continue my reading and wrestling with sacred texts and my hustling for virtue.  My contact with the Divine.  That feeling of serenity, peace, and love that spiritual texts give me suggest that they’re onto something.  Someone once told me that he didn’t see enough evidence to make him believe.  I wonder if he’s looking.  I’ll fully admit that there’s no proof I can put before him.  But my personal experience has encountered evidence that makes me believe.