I will be at scales, tonight
Despite my flaws, Carol accepts me as perfect for her
She is perfect for me, our world is perfect
As perfect as can be this side of eternity
But the world isn’t Carol
My world can’t be only Carol, can’t be only our world
The world doesn’t care about me as does Carol—why would it?
There are 24 key signatures, all with their scales
48, if you count pentatonic scales, then there are 7 modes in every key
Though, to me, the modes are another matter
This all is expected of me, of every musician; I expect it of me
If I’m not careful, I’ll rest content in Carol’s valuation of my worth
Rest in the perfect world our own, in our care for each other
Carol doesn’t care about scales—why would she?
Though she is my whole world, we are the whole world to each other
The world is not Carol
If I’m going to solo in Santana, I had better be sure in my scales
Then, eternity is more than scales
And the man playing the scales is as the music in eternity
Time was, that man was all that mattered to me
But the world is not eternity
Even if I think I’ll find eternity planted in the world, through the world
It isn’t either-or, the world and eternity
It’s good to plant my feet on the ground, even if the ground be art
Carol likes it when I play a song for her
SCALES
05 Aug 2021 Leave a comment
in Uncategorized Tags: complacency, contentment, flaws, love, modes, music, poem, poetry, Santana, scales, self-worth, worth
TONIGHT
19 Jul 2019 Leave a comment
in Uncategorized Tags: collapsing, complacency, darkness, despair, dream, emptiness, poetry, possibilities
I felt, more than heard,
The pounding pulse of the bass
It was what I wanted tonight
I didn’t want to think
I only wanted to feel
And lose myself in the sound
Things matter differently
When your world is collapsing
You fill time differently
When the long train is running
There are hobbies, work, pastimes, art
Sometimes you buy things for fun
Then there is the casino
When the long train derails
There is just the fullness
Of that dark emptiness
Sitting in the power of despair
Oh, you may make plans
You may even dream
Of suppressed possibilities
But there’s mostly the dark—
Feeling that—
And the power of the sound
Tonight
Geode
03 May 2017 Leave a comment
in Uncategorized Tags: complacency, geode, peace, sacred hearts, sacred space, violence
I bought a geode at a New Age store
–So like my being’s core
Unbecoming outside
Oh, but beautiful inside
Appearing unresponsive, hard, or harsh at first sight
Oh, I’ll fight
In a world with so much violence
So much negligence
So many who don’t seem to care
I despise the callous shell I feel I need to wear
For I am weak
Unlike Love lived out in a world gone dark and bleak
Inside hide facets of love I long to share
Oh, I care
So much love I have to release
And do in too few places
Those opened spaces
When there is peace
In holy times
In safe, sheltered, placid climes
In sacred spaces, among hearts beloved
Among sacred hearts, peacefully moved
When the crusty world breaks open
So often merely broken
Shattered
Wits scattered
When dreams, comfort, complacency quake
Break
Hearts open and lay bare
When comfort and complacency tear
I found my torn open heart and nurtured and cultivated
And prayed and wept and meditated
My soul sublimated
And hard-hearted adamant beatified
Inside
Though whenever fractious forces weep and subside
The beauty shows
Love flows
Received and bestowed
Shining and reflecting like my opened geode